Prince of Peace

 From my devotions, June 14, 2026 - 

“Jesus allows Himself to be bound so that others may be set free.” - Joni and Friends Devotional - I Am 

Creed by Rich Mullins - CHORUS: 

And I believe what I believe 

Is what makes me what I am 

I did not make it, no it is making me 

It is the very truth of God and not 

The invention of any man 

Here’s the music video I shared on Facebook 4 days ago - Creed by Rich Mullins  https://youtu.be/9LR2hFP1yb4?is=63_y2yas2ThMbqli

I’m so glad I reconnected with Rich Mullins song’ “Creed” originally released in August 1993. I stumbled across it on YouTube and shared it on Facebook when a friend asked me if I watched the “Ragamuffin” movie about Rich Mullins life. At the time I didn’t but immediately looked for it and watched it. It really encouraged me to open up. I’ve been searching the scriptures in desperate need to heal my broken heart. The “Ragamuffin” movie is a really good movie, if you haven’t watched it, I encourage you to watch it too. Christian Music Artist, Rich Mullins, struggled with his faith before his death in a car accident on September 19, 1997. I can relate to his struggle with his faith because I am struggling too. 

Sometimes the grief paralyzes me ever since we lost our daughter in a terrible car accident. And I can’t seem to get motivated to do anything except take care of our animals and our “twins” and on a good day make dinner.

It’s like waiting to see her again is taking so long. She wasn’t supposed to leave. She was my big motivator. She kept me going because she would call or text to check on me pretty much everyday. I never met anyone like her who not only did that for me but she seemed to be engaged in not just our family life but often made herself available for her friends and extended family as well. She left a big void and my world was crushed when she crashed. 

I have longed for heaven since I was a child. People get uncomfortable when I admit I can’t wait to get to heaven. Even before Michelle passed away I wanted to go there. It’s like I can’t get satisfied with the things of earth. It’s like a part of me is already there and it intensified when Michelle left. Maybe because I understand nothing can satisfy my emptiness like Jesus. It’s hard work sometimes to do all the right things when you don’t feel like it. Sometimes all I want to do is sit and wait for Jesus to come. Until He does I will go to bed early so I can wake up early and have my coffee alone with Jesus. To God be the glory, who made us and is making us for that day. 

Psalms 130:5-6 NKJV

I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, And in His word I do hope. My soul waits for the Lord More than those who watch for the morning— Yes, more than those who watch for the morning.

I know waiting is a part of life.

I know where I’ll be when God calls me home.

Psalms 17:15 NKJV

As for me, I will see Your face in righteousness; I shall be satisfied when I awake in Your likeness.

I pray God teaches me to let each day come and learn to be thankful for each day I get to wake up until my last day on earth when my eyes will be fully open. What a day that will be! While I wait for that day, I pray God gives me strength to do the will of the Father. To rise up and be fully who God made me to be. To believe that God loves me and I don’t have to pretend everything is okay. I’m sure I hide my sadness because I want to make people happy and help them if I can. Yet, not my will, God’s will be done. Thank You Jesus for the cross. Thank you that you died for me. It was there on the cross that you took my sin upon yourself. I am washed in the blood. O Lamb of God. Thank you! 

Hebrews 13:20-21 NKJV

Now may the God of peace who brought up our Lord Jesus from the dead, that great Shepherd of the sheep, through the blood of the everlasting covenant, make you complete in every good work to do His will, working in you what is well pleasing in His sight, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory forever and ever. Amen.

This world is passing away and we can’t stop it. Praise God, heaven came to save us.

John 3:16 NKJV

For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.

John 12:32 NKJV

And I, if I am lifted up from the earth, will draw all peoples to Myself.

John 14:6 NKJV

Jesus said to him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.

Matthew 6:9-13 NKJV

In this manner, therefore, pray: Our Father in heaven, Hallowed be Your name. Your kingdom come. Your will be done On earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread. And forgive us our debts, As we forgive our debtors. And do not lead us into temptation, But deliver us from the evil one. For Yours is the kingdom and the power and the glory forever. Amen.

More ramblings of my soul as I ponder my existence and why I’m still here. Bear with me as I share my heart. 

Maybe I’m missing something. I know I have faith. I know God gave it to me to save me from my sins. I know I will be with Him one day. Maybe when I woke up the other day as I was walking out of my bedroom to have my quiet time I heard, “if you don’t need your faith” wasn’t because I don’t. Then heard, “then give it to someone else” was because at the time I didn’t know I needed to share my faith and by doing so it would help me. And maybe by writing this it will help you too. I don’t know who else reading this is hurting too. I hope we can learn together it’s okay to not be okay. We don’t have to hide our sadness. Sharing it heals us and holding it in makes us miserable. God said in His word to bear one another’s burdens. 

Galatians 6:2 NKJV

Bear one another’s burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ.

We can’t do that unless we are being honest with ourselves and honest with each other. I thank everyone who reached out to me since my last blog. Thank you for walking along side me giving me opportunity to share and also sharing your stories. I’m not the only one who has lost a child or someone close to them. I’m so sad for everyone who understands this. I pray for “King of my glory” and yours, to heal our broken hearts and be our “Prince of Peace”. 

Sincerely, 

Your friend in Christ,

Debbie  

Ephesians 3:13-21 NKJV

Therefore I ask that you do not lose heart at my tribulations for you, which is your glory. For this reason I bow my knees to the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, from whom the whole family in heaven and earth is named, that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with might through His Spirit in the inner man, that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height— to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God. Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen.