Make Room For The New

Leviticus 26:10 New King James Version (NKJV)

10 You shall eat the old harvest, and clear out the old because of the new.

Michelle & Myah - March 8, 2014 

Everyday without you is hard because I miss talking to you. I just want to stop and stare at you. You loved babies that’s true. And seeing you hold Myah and look into her eyes as a mother would do was who you are. You loved people the same way. There was nothing like telling you something and getting your full attention because you listened with the heart. Your eyes were your heart. I miss looking into them and telling you things that you cared about because you cared what I had to say and loved me with your eyes. Your words were from the heart. Sometimes they cut like knives because I needed to hear the truth but never meanly. You were oh so kind. The truth coming from you was always so meaningful. You told me what you thought but never told me what to do. I miss that. I miss telling you things and you would listen. You didn’t always have something to say but you always listened. You wanted to know how I was doing. I miss your random phone calls and texts and you planning the next get together and telling me when we’d see each other again. I really miss you planning things. I miss you being here. I miss you. But you were my baby. Our first child God gave us on this earth. Everything about you was so cool. I loved being your mommy and seeing life through your eyes was an adventure. You were smart. Daddy taught you things like how to say Czechoslovakia and you could say it! You could work on multiple wooden puzzles dumped out on the floor at one time and put them back together again in no time flat! You learned fast and continued to absorb life in the same way. You were a big helper. All your life. Only I had no idea. I mean, I knew you loved your family. You helped us a lot. But you helped everybody! If only you knew. I suppose you do because you’re with Jesus now and now you know everything. But when down here on earth, you were the smartest person I know. But if you only knew how many people loved you. I mean at your home going celebration so many people showed up that there was standing room only because there wasn’t a seat not taken to honor you and your life. I’ll never forget that day. And now I wait for the day I’ll see you again. Selfishly I want to be the first person to hug you on the other side and hold you in my arms. At least I want you to be the first person I see besides my daddy and Jesus. Oh I know it will be crowded with loved ones like my brother and cousins and grandparents and uncles and aunts. But there’s nothing like losing a child and wanting to see them again. 

Last Sunday at church we were visiting Elevation for the first time to watch Gavin be dedicated. Steven Furtick said, “Sometimes we think we lost something when God really only moved it.” I couldn’t help but think that’s you. You moved to heaven. I know that. I can trust that. I know I’ll see you there. But I miss you now. I can’t stop missing you. I know you’re helping Jesus get things ready. Because you loved to help and organize things. You are where your soul belongs. And one day. 

One day.

I’ll be there with you. 

I suppose the new is here. But the new will also be there. I’m trying to find the balance of letting go of yesterday to welcome the new. You will not come to me no longer. I will go to you. I’ll see you in heaven “one day” baby girl. I’m holding onto the promise of no longer missing you. When one day comes. I’ll be where my soul belongs too. I’ll be with you. I’ll be with Jesus. 

I’ll end this jabber with your nephew’s Baby Dedication, Gavin Ezra Miller. He misses you too! I know he would have been in your arms just like Myah was. 

With love, 

Mommy 

I’m pretty sure Gavin’s big brother Gideon was looking up at you. :) 

Gavin Ezra Miller - March 8, 2020 

She said

“She said to Him, “Yes, Lord, I believe that You are the Christ, the Son of God, who is to come into the world.”” - John 11:27

Martha's brother died. Jesus was late (so she thought). . 

  

For some reason I started to write this blog and never finished it. I titled it, “She said”, because I wanted my words to be like Martha's. I took a picture of Martha’s words in my Bible on August 24, 2017. My brother left this earth a mere 6 days later on August 30, 2017. It wasn’t until after his death that I came back to this and noticed Jesus' words to Martha... “Jesus said to her, “Your brother will rise again.”” -  John 11:23

 ... I am comforted. ❤️✝️🙏🏻🙌🏻 I love you my brother.

Celebrating my brother’s last birthday on this earth at the age of 56. Joe was a fun guy who liked to make people laugh. He called himself, “Joe kid” and often said, “Joe kidding” when you were trying to tell him something serious. He was the life of the party wherever he went! 

Joseph Harold Ezekiel - June 6, 1961 - August 30, 2017

I will see you in the city, Joe! 

Hebrews 11:13-16 New King James Version (NKJV)

The Heavenly Hope

13 These all died in faith, not having received the promises, but having seen them afar off [a]were assured of them, embraced them and confessed that they were strangers and pilgrims on the earth. 14 For those who say such things declare plainly that they seek a homeland. 15 And truly if they had called to mind that country from which they had come out, they would have had opportunity to return. 16 But now they desire a better, that is, a heavenly country. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for He has prepared a city for them. 

Awareness Angels 💙💛

Judy’s Angels! 😇

For Down syndrome awareness month I’d like you to meet Judy Adams. Judy just celebrated her 20th birthday yesterday! She is an inspiring individual born with Down syndrome using her talents to help others by making awareness angels. I know this is Down syndrome awareness month but Judy doesn’t think of herself, she thinks of you. Do you need an Angel? Judy has one for you. Come check out her page. https://www.facebook.com/Awareness-Angels-234281813810056/ Happy Down Syndrome Awareness Month! 💙💛

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY JUDY!!!!!
😍🙏🏻😘💜🤗🎂💖🎉

The Farm 💙💛

“A man’s heart plans his way, But the LORD directs his steps.” Proverbs 16:9 NKJV 

OK y’all! Here’s a little catch up! But first I want to tell you I made a mistake on my blog post yesterday. I went back and checked the dates for chasing Little Hannah and realized they were wrong and corrected them. 

Here’s an update! As I shared on my blog yesterday, I have a friend named Kim who has been telling me about this dream of a farm she has for people with Down syndrome. And I’m starting to SEE the vision! Already Kim has been sharing ideas for fundraisers and lots of potential farms for sale. ;) Since we began talking about it Kim put in for a weekend off to come down and see us on November 10th and 11th to discuss everything! Her daughter Judy has been working hard to make angels for a fundraiser and hopefully when Judy comes down with her mom she can teach Hannah and Lera how to make them.... 

Here’s how God has been making me smile and my conversation with Kim today.... 

Me: “Guess what? This may seem strange but God made me smile last night when I was doing dishes I happened to look at the animals on the shelf that were put up so Lera wouldn’t chew on them that we got from the fair. But I really saw how they symbolize “the farm”. Then again this morning I noticed the screws nuts and bolts that Jim brought home and sat there for a repair job on our ping pong table that have been sitting there for a while lol. But the picture in the middle and how all got sat up there without me even realizing you had a dream before they got placed. And how God is impressing me so sweetly that He’s already there! Here’s the picture of my window sill above the sink where I do dishes everyday. Wow! God is so so good! He’s amazing to delight us in such profound ways with His presence.”

.......“It’s like the farm with all the animals and the assembly line that Matthew enjoys all together!”  ....... “Don’t worry about tomorrow God is already there!”

Kim: “That is so awesome!  AND here is a picture of a project that Judy did over the weekend......it was about people in the 1800's.....she had to set up a feudal and mid evil times!  Judy did the research and laid out the community as she read it.....mind you take a good look at it!  It is exactly, what we are looking to do minus the castle! 

🙂

But like you....there were lots of animals 🙂”

.......“It is uncanny......how your window sill and Judy's project...revolve around a farm!”.......“God is speaking 🙂” ....... “And as you see there is even a church! 🙂”

Me: “Wow! That speaks volumes! Not only did Judy do an outstanding job, it is my 

story! ...not that long ago I wrote in my journal that I traded my castle for a mansion. Because I was telling my testimony on how ever since I was a little girl I wanted to get married and live in one and have lots of children lol! But now that I’m older I set my mind on things above. This world is not my home. I’m just passing through. Heaven has a mansion waiting for me! But then you came along and shared your dream for a farm. And I was just thinking how God was saying, hold on, I’m not finished with you yet. You have a lot more living to do! It’s like He was say what about the farm? And I was saying, yes Lord, I’ll trade my castle in for a farm! Wow. Wow. Wow. Is all I got to say! God is working! I can feel it and see I’m starting to see the vision. 😃”

To be continued...💙💛

Happy Down Syndrome Awareness Month! 💙💛

“The One who calls you is faithful; he will surely do it.” 1 Thessalonians 5:24 ESV 

First, I want to thank my God through Jesus Christ for you all. (Romans 1:8) 

Kim; founder of Gifts From The Heart For Downs- thank you for your message of hope and sharing the dream God gave you for our children and your invitation to journey with you towards “helping others and animals”. I look forward to your dream unfolding before us and the hope in store as we listen to the One who made us and calls us. Surely He will do it! 

Rachel; founder of Ink & Parchment- thank you for encouraging me to write my story. At times I wonder if I even have one. So maybe this is it? It’s about a farm. 

A farm for people with Down syndrome...

Sep 20, 6:12 PM From Kim: 

“Hi Debbie!

How are you....I have been thinking of you a lot as I have wanted to drive on down to visit.  In the mean time I also have a question that I would like to ask......

Is there a time that you and I can talk!

I honestly haven't forgotten about you all.  Think of you a lot!

Sending much love to you all,

Kim”

SEP 20, 6:50 PM From Debbie: 

“Hi Kim! That makes me happy! Would love to see you again! I was at my daughters volleyball game but Im usually home. Just give me a call when you get a chance. Love you all too!”

It was on September 20, 2018 when Kim contacted me through FB messenger. She later called me that same evening to fill me in on her dream. Kim and I first met through Facebook in 2010 by the common bond of our children born with DS. Kim adopted her two children Matthew and Judy. We had Hannah born into our family and adopted Valeria. We both met at a Ruck March in Washington DC on October 2, 2011 to bring awareness to DS hosted by Tischer’s Troops and have have kept in touch ever since. She was there cheering our family on when we were called to adopt another angel named “little Hannah” that hit a brick wall. We were chasing after her hard through the Foster care process in Baltimore county in hopes of adopting her late 2014 which sadly ended early 2017 when Little Hannah was pronounced not adoptable by the courts and ordered to remain in Foster care with the family who has been taking care of her from the time her birth family was disrupted. Although Little Hannah was not placed in our family, she remains in our hearts.

October 2, 2011

So here we are and as I type this I realized that today is the second day of October. October is DS Awareness month! Also today is exactly 7 years since the day we met Kim and her family on the Ruck March in DC for Down syndrome awareness with Tischer’s troops. Tischer’s Troops was started in 2010 and run by the Tischer’s who have a son also named Matthew also born with DS. So much fun!! 

Yesterday was the first day of October and the first day for DS awareness month! Photo below is of Valeria (Lera) and Hannah that I shared on social media. They had just visited the doctors and they were given these balloons. How cool they matched the colors for DS! So much cuteness!! 

October 1, 2018 

To be continued... 💙💛 

The Wedding & The Gate

We went to a wedding on Saturday for our nephew Shawn and his fiancé Mary. It was a nice day. My husband had been working, previously, that morning, to remove the old alternator from the van he inherited by his late father, to prep it for a new one that he wanted to buy on the way home. He also needed a haircut, so he ran and got one before he showered. Once he was ready,  we ran to the store to buy a wedding card, along with a gift, and signed it on the way. According to Waze, we would arrive late. However, God blessed us with green lights on the way! Once we got to the final part of our journey, there was a gate that we had to stop at. The gate attendant asked for our name. Jim gave our last name. Upon request, Jim also stated our first name. Immediately, once he answered, the gate began to open, so we could drive through. 

I couldn’t help but think that’s what heaven will be like one day. Our name will be written in the lambs book of life if we RSVP’d on earth when the invitation was given. Our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ paid the way for us to enter heaven. But we have to respond in advance. He extended it to us knowing we couldn’t pay for ourselves. He bought us with His own blood when He died on the cross to save us from our sins. All we have to do is believe on His name. Jesus is the only way to the Father. Just like we couldn’t go the rest of the way to our nephew’s wedding without planning ahead for it. The gate won’t open for us to enter heaven unless we have said “yes” to God’s son who died on the cross to pay for our sins. The invitation was sent. There will be a wedding in heaven one day.  We are the bride of Christ! (Revelation 19:7-9) 

“For many are called, but few are chosen.” - Matthew 22:14

Unless there is a response, now, it will be too late, then. The gate won’t open, unless you know Jesus. Do you know Him? 

“Jesus said to him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.”
“If you had known Me, you would have known My Father also; and from now on you know Him and have seen Him.”  - John 14:6-7

“So they said, “Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and you will be saved, you and your household.” - Acts 16:31 

Did I forget to mention our daughter got engaged?

Things have changed a lot around here. I can't tell if I'm just watching or participating at times. But tomorrow we're going bridal gown shopping because our oldest daughter got engaged!!! I can't wait to see her model her choices until the "one" stands out! It should be fun tagging along with her bridal party for a girls day out and then lunch. But before we go, let me share a picture with you of our daughter, Michelle and our future son in law, Howard on their engagement day ~ 7~8~16 ~ they set "the date" for 5~6~17!!! :D <3 :D <3 ~

Howard and Michelle! XOXO